8:40

it was stupid of me to work today- working everyday- not stopping to get any work done- not the best way to exist in the world. today is rain and this weekend has been ghosts. i see you out of every corner of my eye- why do i sometimes miss you? only now- only when the leaves are turning- and this month is supposed to be someone else's. and danny says that we should love the whole world and to spend to much time on one person is to deny you the knowledge of someone else and it's your duty to know as many people as you can and to love them all. but my heart is not that all-incompassing. i need to take my time, survey bodies and make maps to use when i get lost in someone's skin. i need to feel that slow falling in- the transition from complete strangers to complete comfort...even though one day when you go to lean on your lover they have disappeared- and you fall on cold. i hope i can get a haircut soon- i don't want my hair to become mulletoid.